How would you feel when your parents told you that they dodn'tlove you? if they tolf you that you were a misstake and a wast of sapce? if they told you that they think you are the worst thing that everheppend to them and that the ywant to send you to foster care?
Whell i know how that feels because my parents tellme that all the thime,did you knoe that they have tolf me and my suster that so many times that i cant even count the times they have done it.And the more they say it the more it hutrs, i mean its comeing from your parents, the ones that are suposed to love you no matter what happen, no mmatter what you do.
you know the worst part is when they tell you this because you did the dishes wrong or when you have done something right, its like they never even whanted you in the first place, like they just whant you so that you can do the things they dont want to do or when they need someone to yell at because they have hade a shitty day but they dont care if i have had a shitty day so it just makes everything for me wors.
I mean it husrts, like it really, really hurts and you start getting trust issues. I have, i have trust issues. if you know me you probobly wouulnt belive me but it stue. you probobly dont know me as well as you think you do . there is only one person that knows the really me and abssolutley everything i have gone through and that is someone that has hae it wors that me, not by her parents telling her that they dont like here, no but instead just dont do anything, she doesnt even have the right ediucation but as long as shes happy im happy.
I pray for her, i pray for here everytie im in church and i pray for my oldest brother to evry timeim in church to because it think he can do so much better but all he needs to do is be happy and find what it is that he is supoed to do in life.
And i go to church at leat twice a week now. i might not be a cristan but i do belive in god, the supernatural and hell. but i just what the ones i love to have a good life without worries but is seems like evrytime i gett a new frien that friend has one problem or an other...
xoxo
Izzi