I have this feeling that I am just a burden to everyone, that no one really wants me in their life they just feel foced to be nice to me because they have heard about how bad my childhood was. And even people who dont even know tht much about my past they tend to just be overly nice.
I gues I just give of the vibe that I am in need or something, I wish that people would just be nice to me and tell me the truth. If they like me or if they don't, and if they don't they don't have to feel the need to be nice to me.
I hate when people try to be nice to me even when they talk shit about me behinde my back. I would rather you say it to my face so that I don't have to worry about what I say around you. But I gues that is what it is to grow up.
But I am one of the pople who will say on my mind and sometimes I don't really understand that I hurt your feelings because I have been raised to always say what is going on. I once told my coworker that people were talking shit about her because I thouht she would like to know, and later another coworker came up to me and told me that I had really hurt that persons feelings.
But I gues I didn't really understand why because that is what I would have wanted someone to do for me.
Anyways this is the end of my useless rrant,
xoxo Izzy.